Doctor Mama Wifey WHATEVER

Who likes to get up early in the morning? Mornings with the family vs mornings with going to work, I don’t like either. As a “part-time” physician I need to continuously go between work and home and transitioning between both or someone could die, patients as well as 4 year olds without common sense. Sometimes I feel like I am on top of the world and a great multitasker mother of the year and others I feel like I am failing at life, miserably.

0600 At work now, I already miss my little minions (that includes the dog and hubby), why do I work? My amazing husband already makes enough money to support the family (which I am completely aware of being privileged). As a physician and going through training for sooooo many years and finally getting a chance to “help society” I feel proud of my accomplishment. A part of me wants to continue growing this part of me to learn more about my field, to be more involved in projects at the hospital to hopefully benefit patient care. That would take sacrifice. Sacrifice of my time with my family, plain and simple.

Whoever says “you can have it all” or “great multitasker” or ” you can do everything you want” is lying. OK ok sure you can do anything you want, but at the expense and sacrifice of something else. I don’t judge others for wanting to be multiple things, to each their own. After so many years of doing the back and forth of home/work/self I am choosing to swing the pendulum over to focusing on home/self. Work will always be there, but my 4 year old asking me “What the hell is that!?” while driving or “I don’t want to go to college, I want to be with you mama” will not be.

Can’t time travel, yet.